Ugh!

I have posted in almost a month. I officially suck. So I am starting to get the feeling that I am not attractive in the least bit. Everyone person I like always rejects me and so many people call me fat or emo daily. I am really getting sick of everything. This is really very few people that I actually like. I just want to give up. Seriously. FML.

!@#$%^&*

I really wish I could stick to posting everyday but it seems quite impossible. So remember how my life is spiriling downward? well it's getting worse. And that amazing person I was talking to? Not to so much anymore. I do kinda like someone but they already told me thay don't like me like that anddd they are mad rude to me now. I started going to back to people in my past. Bad idea! All I did was get my feelings hurt. I am very jealous person and it's getting the best of me. I dont know what to do. Ugh! Save me?

I am a terrible person...

I haven't posted in a week. What is my problem?! I can tweet like a bazillion times a day but I can't write one simple blog...? Erg. I am frustrated! Anyway this past week has been terrible. I have fallen into old habits again; in school and in life and it just seems like my life is spiraling downward (very emo, right?) but it's true. Although there has been a few good things this week. Like this really cool person that I started talking to. (you know who you are. ) :D

I want to be a model someday.

I want to attend NYU and study their photography program. And I also want to attend a modeling school in New York. I really hope I get my degree. And I can move to Paris, France and be an amazing french-American photographer. Maybe I will become famous. My biggest wish is to get one of my pictures in "Vogue". I would die!

Ihavenolife...

So I said I would post again later so here I am. I though I would have more to talk about but sadly I don't. After I blogged on here, I went and took a nap then I had dinner then I read. Nest i had a panic attack. And now I am on here. Cureently I blogging and listening to music. I am listenig to Corbra Starship. I love cobraaa<3! I am going to sit and ponder for a bit and come up with a good rant to blog about or just something intersting to blog.

I already failed.

I didn't post yesterday when I said the day before that I would post everyday. Oh well. Well today wasn't that eventful. The only interesting thing that happened was that I found out the guy I like likes me. But I am not going to say anything about it yet so I don't jinx it. I am home from school now. I have nothing do 'cause I have no homework. Right now I am listening to music. I'll post again later.

Sorry I have neglected you.

I have not been on here in forever. I have been very busy with marching band and homework. So lets play catch up... I am single. That amazing boyfriend, Nick? Yeah, not so much. He cheated on me. So we are done and over with. We broke up the day before our one month. But it's whatever. I am over it. So marching band just ended on Friday. I am kind of happy and sad. I am sad because it's basically my life. But then again I am happy because now I can actually have a life besides band. And I will be able to concentrate on school more and get better grades therefore making my parents happy. Which is basically a big task in my life because if they are happy, I have a better day. You got me? Well I am going to try and start to post everyday again. We will see.